Poem #253 Reality or Fantasy

In a restless state of mind, peace hard to retain,

One leg in reality another in my fantasy, driving me insane;

I don’t know what’s real, or what’s fiction anymore,

Disappointed, I want to show everyone the door!

All I want is a simple life, filled with health, happiness and love,

A life where problems don’t cloud, my sunny skies above;

How do I bridge the gap, between my current and my dreams,

Am tired of being the giver, when will it be my turn to receive?

I wish I were a stranger, to my life’s reality,

I don’t know how to make my dreams, an eventuality;

I have everything I want in life, but not really,

My dreams are the only place, where I live happily! 

It’s ironic to have it all, knowing it ain’t mine at all,

Know not how to react, to this intertwined life of recall;

I laugh and cry at the same time, for all that is, and could have been,

And go on to try live in my present, as absurd as it may seem!