Poem #141 Nothing......yet......Everything!

You reached out to me, out of the blue,

Mindless conversations, no longer the hue;

There was a reason, I ghosted you before,

The attraction intense, I knew I was floored;

Over 24 years, since we first met,
Questions for you, I have a never-ending set;

Arduous, while simplicity we crave,
Each other, we elected to brave!

I write to you pages and pages, of my thoughts,

While simple questions or monosyllables, are your best shot;

Not risking, playing with untamable fires,
I initially denied fulfilling, your selfie desires;

Filled with a gazillion “no’s”, as my first response,
You easily won them over, with your patient stance!

Unchartered territory, soon lose us we would,
Tried to navigate together, the best we could;
An enigma, you chose veracity and boundaries to dare,
Instead of my tough choice of truth, and transparent share;
I was all open, about how much I cared,
While silence and emojis, became your optimal response pair!

Refreshing honesty, in your dialogue,

We spent time catching up, on our prologue;

To my daily ask of, coffee or me,
You reply "Both", and regret I see;

When least expected, you elicit riots of laughter,

Nights rolling into days, engaging in doting banter.

While mostly our ideas, form a modest match,

There are some conversations, we best kept latched;

My acute concerns, about your attachment to cigarette,

Your penchant to do as you please, my silence put to test;

You vehemently abhor, the culture and mentality,

Of the place I call home, soon to be my country.

Little things you say and do, that shows that you care,

Your casual exhibits, of sudden unrestrained share;

While many emotions, remain unsaid and unwritten,

Sometimes I feel, completely wowed and totally smitten;

You loath complexities, advises, lipstick and peppermint tea,

Making me often wonder, “Why you do you like me?”!
 
My days began with you, and nights ended your consort,
Our imagination played a part, to make the distance short;
Like a petulant child, I refused each night to sleep,
Did not need my dreams, for you had swept me off my feet;
A million odd kisses, and many tight tight hugs,
I knew I was safe, yet feared, I was slowly falling in love!
 
An anxious overthinker, I always tend to worry,
What the future holds, as our exceptional story;

I fret about your family, our unspoken terrain,
Though I am very happy, my heart aches in pain;
While this has been, loads and loads of fun,
I know that I, will never be your One.

Faced with this unique choice, in my life,
Where kindness and happiness, are now in strife;
For the blessed feeling, of a guilt-free mind,

At the expense of happiness, I always chose to be kind;
By design now, I give happiness, the chance she deserves,
And lay in bed, shunning all my guilt-ridden fears.
 
We know not, what the future has in store,
Maybe you will end it, not wanting me anymore…
Or maybe my eccentricities, and weird sense of humor,
Will drive a wedge, and prove the ruiner?
I don’t know, what perturbs me more,
Being undesirable, versus being the reason you are bored!
 
No matter what happens, in our imminent lives,
I am ecstatic today, thanks to your attitude that gives;

Thank you for making space, for me in your life,

Thank you for forcing me, to come back alive;

I wake up each day, with new hopes for happiness,
Who knows, maybe in an alternate world, we are a success!
 
Now for the real reason, I had to pen this down,
Wrote half a dozen sonnets, unfortunately their cover was blown;
I have given you myself, and made you irreplaceable in my mime,
To make it tougher to beat, I also added the gift of my precious time;

Now I need a birthday present, from my heart to supplement,
A fantastic gift, that surpasses this highest compliment;
Another poem spilling my sentiments, is the only fitting resolve,
The key to my mind, thoughts, heart and soul, is all yours!
 
Happy Birthday Dumbo! Hope this merits more than a “Nothing” comment 😊